Why do we do things JUST to torture ourselves? I was thinking about it, thinking how much I do it to myself, so I figured other people do it too. Probably all of you who read this nonsense of mine.
For me, whenever I have one thing that really bothers me, I like to try and think about it as much as possible when I could easily put it in the back of my mind and not care. And Ill try to find out more to torture myself, like misery loves company, except my misery really just wants to multiply within myself.
Theres this one thought, this one fact that will always bother me, and that I will probably never be able to get over and I force myself to think about it everyday.
And I shouldn't, I should be happy with all the good things, but this one bad thing is in the middle of all the good, and I'm standing here only looking at it.
I'm not sure why I'm writing this, or what posting this will accomplish, but maybe it will just prove that I'm not the only one who does this.
On an even less positive note:
There is now one person who I utterly hate. Even when I said I hated Zach when I was upset with him, I didn't hate him....But now I do hate someone.
And I can't think of any person who I have hated since I got saved in 8th grade.
....Yeah.
:/
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