Distant?

I feel really closed off from the rest of the world.
I don't really tell anyone my problems anymore, and none of my friends tell me theirs. I feel like every relationship I have is kind of on the surface, and honestly...its all my fault. I suppose I've distanced myself away. Ive slowly stopped telling Kimberly things that go on with me, what people do to me or what is going on in my brain, and now she doesn't really even ask. We honestly don't talk that much, we only see each other on the car ride to school, which won't happen much longer, and at practice, when we don't even get real time to be best friends. And most of the other time I go somewhere, I go with Cory, not Kimberly.

I have no idea what is ever going on with Chrystall or Kristen or Brooke or Ansley or anyone who used to tell me things. I've always felt like I'm SUPPOSED to be here for all of you guys. I am SUPPOSED to be here to talk and rant to, to not tell a soul whatever you happen to mention and to try and give the best advice I can. But I can't think of the last time I gave a friend advice.

I really don't like myself, and I honestly don't see why my boyfriend or any of my friends do either.



Positive note: My boyfriend is sweet, cute and funny. And he turns 19 on saturday, and I'm working on what I'm gonna do for him. :DD